hey hey hey, it's me again. this year has been a wirlwind for me. both in immeasurably good and bad ways. i've tried to more express myself recently, and find things i'm interested in, like finding a niche topic to read about. i've found history recently has peaked my interest in this way. if you know me in real life you likely already know that. i'm obsessed with history, and i'm an absolute braniac when it comes to history class or it in general. my reading skills have been largely lacking, and it is still a problem i face; most books are either too 'basic' for me. i've found a small handfull of books that i feel (thankfully) seem to peak my interest--ironically, most of them are biographies or historic fiction. i feel like it's rather a dopamine chase.

some ways i've tried to slow down and learn more in a country of anti-intellectualism are by 1; collecting and listening to vinyl's and cd's (my wallet is suffering), 2; journaling and writing more often, and 3; penpalling. i've grown fond of the third one, it's a mix of writing and still being social in a non-social way. i love how i can write and they have no idea how socially anxious i am. i have a few across europe and oceania, so it's interesting to learn different customs and lifestyles. i'm reaching the 1-year mark on a penpal i've had for the longest that i'm still in touch with, which is a cool milestone i suppose.

holy crap. it has been a while since i last updated this place. and what has happened with me? a lot and nothing i suppose. it's the last few weeks of school, so i have some high hopes. my birthday was recently, so i got gifted a few vinyls and other things, which i'm super grateful for < 3 (kiitos äitini). i have a larger project for a local surfshop's skateboard painting event, and an art homework i need to get started on.

as for my other classes, math has been boring as shit, and science is confusing as always. my history teacher is chill, and we are going back over the cold war and kennedy. speaking of kennedy, i recently got a camelot photobook which is nice. back on my art class, i chose gouche for another large project we're doing in-class. i've also gotten back to doing art because of that.

on a more personal note, i've been doing better with my mental health, but have been increasingly wanting to see if i am able to get a diagnosis (specifically for adhd). also talked about some not-so-great childhood experiences with a close friend, and have rethought some things about said experience. i'm currently watching legally blonde (1), ginny and georgia, the man in the high castle, gilmore girls, and moomins (90s version). as my finland/sweden trip is getting closer, my finnish skills are oh so slowly getting 'better'. duolingo sucks, and i've learned more myself than from a year of that. i am also getting my finnish passport, which will be my second one after having gotten my american one a few years ago. is that considered dual citizenship? i'm not sure.